OYSTERHOOD is reclusiveness or solitude, or an overwhelming desire to stay at home.

— @HaggardHawks

Sunday morning. Hyenas, lions, spiders and coffee. The wind awakening (I am not a wind person). More coffee with books. The rest of the blueberries, vitamins. The well of indolence overflowing with joy. I got up well after 1pm. But then it was all household action: turned mattress, changed sheets, did laundry, washed the dirty kitchen floor, cooked pasta for lunch.

And then I went to the cinema, lockdown-style.

Popcorn, coke (although I hardly ever do, I bought one small can for the lockdown – it’s something I have when I go out, but don’t buy for home) and the internet link on my desktop computer: MOFFIE.

Paid R150 to watch and it was worth every cent.

When I first heard the new version of “Sugar Man” by Rebekah Thompson from the soundtrack to Moffie, I was mesmerised, haunted. The trailer was promising. And I have seen Kai Luke Brümmer on stage before. He was excellent in the latest production of “Master Harold” … and the Boys at the Fugard Theatre. I have been meaning to watch Moffie before the lockdown, but just didn’t manage on time. Fortunately, it is streaming online. The film is stunning. Very difficult to watch, but necessary. Brümmer is … too good for easy words – and I am not a film critic. Let me just say that he carries the entire film in his face. It’s an incredible performance. I thought briefly of the young Matt Damon, but Brümmer does his own thing here. The subject is some of the worst of what recent local history has to offer – apartheid, conscription, border war, homophobia – you watch with a lump of horror in your throat. But the cinematography is visual perfection. The light, the sensuality, the homoerotic tension and tenderness – it is eerily seductive. The nightmare unbearable. It is impossible not to be touched, not to shed a tear.

I know these men today, they are among my dearest friends and I so wish they would not have to carry this in their hearts.

The rest of the day was spent on Skype with my Loved Ones.

Since we are reinventing the world, can we please leave war as a concept and as reality in the past?

“Cause I’m tired of these scenes…”

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A different kind of horror unfolding. The scars these rising numbers will leave behind…

Be kind to yourself. Be kind to others. Stay at home.